Broken Again

I'm trying to stand as strong as i can
But still, i'm so fragile
And i hate it
I want to be a strong person

I think that it is enough to face this
I'm trying to keep it in mind
That those sunflower we saw that day is just a coincidence
Coincidence because i love sunflower

I don't want to be broken again

And your existence is far enough to let me see that flower
No more

Back Home

It's been so long since my last time of writing something. Yeah, poem or short story or even daily journal. Only if i have some time and only if i really want to burst out something that have been overflowing in my mind. I have no good time management to let my self keep writing.

Back to write means back home for me. I should stay longer, i suppose to. Because writing is healing. A very good and effective heal of a heart that has been broken down so many times. A very interesting therapy for someone who has too many acivity of work in their life.

Yes, it's been a very hard time for me to organize my mind, my soul, my heart, and my actvity, to make it all balance again.

I'm trying not to be an easy people to fall with my own feeling because i know once it broken it can be much hurt that before.

I'm trying no to be an easy people to believe with my own feeling because i know once i got any disappointment i loose my mind.

I'm trying not to be an easy people to easy to kind to onother because i know once another gives me a shit I want to slaps them.

It really is. Something not easy to do, something not easy to make it last.

But i know i can get through this.

Heal

Take a deep breath
Then asking myself
Many answer in every question
Stay deep in the deepest heart

Is this really what i want?
Is this really what i wish for?
Is this really a path i take?
Is this really a road i lead?

I really need time to heal my self
Just for searching what i really need now