Broken Again

I'm trying to stand as strong as i can
But still, i'm so fragile
And i hate it
I want to be a strong person

I think that it is enough to face this
I'm trying to keep it in mind
That those sunflower we saw that day is just a coincidence
Coincidence because i love sunflower

I don't want to be broken again

And your existence is far enough to let me see that flower
No more

Back Home

It's been so long since my last time of writing something. Yeah, poem or short story or even daily journal. Only if i have some time and only if i really want to burst out something that have been overflowing in my mind. I have no good time management to let my self keep writing.

Back to write means back home for me. I should stay longer, i suppose to. Because writing is healing. A very good and effective heal of a heart that has been broken down so many times. A very interesting therapy for someone who has too many acivity of work in their life.

Yes, it's been a very hard time for me to organize my mind, my soul, my heart, and my actvity, to make it all balance again.

I'm trying not to be an easy people to fall with my own feeling because i know once it broken it can be much hurt that before.

I'm trying no to be an easy people to believe with my own feeling because i know once i got any disappointment i loose my mind.

I'm trying not to be an easy people to easy to kind to onother because i know once another gives me a shit I want to slaps them.

It really is. Something not easy to do, something not easy to make it last.

But i know i can get through this.

Heal

Take a deep breath
Then asking myself
Many answer in every question
Stay deep in the deepest heart

Is this really what i want?
Is this really what i wish for?
Is this really a path i take?
Is this really a road i lead?

I really need time to heal my self
Just for searching what i really need now

Cara Mengetahui Daftar Sekolah Lengkap

Hoy hoy berapa abad (?) saya nggak nulis disini? Sampe berdebu (?) gini? abaikan

Buat postingan kali ini, saya akan coba share cara mengetahui daftar sekolah nasional. Why should i do this? *tiba-tiba terngiang lagu why me~ why me oh~ why me* Soalnya saya juga sering butuh. Jawaban mainstream? Biarin toh emang gitu kok kenyataannya. Daftar sekolah se-indonesia, se-provinsi, se-kota/kabupaten, se-kecamatan, ada lengkap di situs referensi.data.kemdikbud.go.id. Keren kan? Secara pribadi saya sendiri suka butuh data SD buat observasi. Bosen juga kan kalo saya harus observasi ke SD itu-itu aja? Padahal kan banyak SD di kota tempat tinggal saya yang tercinta ini <3 Tapi masalahnya, buat saya adalah alamat. Heu~ Jadi saya simpan baik-baik list data SD se-Kota Tasikmalaya dan dapat dari link di atas.

Oke, kita mulai tutorialnya. Misalnya kita akan mencari daftar SD di Kecamatan Tawang, Kota Tasikmalaya

1. Buka situs referensi.data.kemdikbud.go.id. Nanti akan muncul tampilan seperti ini. Klik untuk perbesar.

2. Klik Data Master lalu pilih Pendidikan Dasar dan Menengah.

3. Setelah itu, akan muncul tampilan seperti ini. Klik Provinsi Jawa Barat.

4. Nanti akan muncul daftar kabupaten dan kota yang ada di provinsi Jawa Barat

Cari Kota Tasikmalaya

5. Ketemu kan? Klik Kota Tasikmalaya. Nanti akan muncul kecamatan yang ada di Kota Tasikmalaya. Klik Kec. Tawang

Lalu akan muncul seperti ini

Lihat! Pusing kan kalo harus nyari SD dengan daftar yang tercampur dengan SMP dan SMA? -_- Supaya mudah, ubah jenjang pendidikan menjadi SD. Jadi nggak perlu nyortir lagi, langsung keluar sesuai kebutuhan kita.

Jadi gini tampilannya.

Jelas kan? Jelas? Dijelas-jelasin aja deh *maksa*.

Nah, segitu dulu deh tutorialnya buat yang sekarang. Kalau ada perubahan, di update lagi postingannya. Kalau ada yang ingin ditanyakan tentang ini, posting di komen. Oke? Pasti saya jawab kok :D

Semoga Bermanfaat! ^_^

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Fall to pieces

Broke down all the things

The suck

Should be vanish

But they didn't

Disturb

Don't you feel tired to disturb me that way?

Do you think that our relationship just a fake?

Do you think that he will got angry because he find something suspicious in my mail?

Oh God!

You have know that our relationship is true

You should know that he got angry because he has find something suspicious in my mail come from you

for a girl who named girl

Shock

For real

I'm shock

For sure

I'm shock

For fact

I'm shock

Extremely shock

Can't believe?

Believe it!

I'm shock!

Bonds

Let's hold our hand each other

There is a warmth can you feel inside it

Let's hold our hand each other

So that our bonds will more much stronger

I do!

I do

I always love the blue sky

Stand alone under the blue sky

See the cloud swaying softly

I do

I always gazing at the sky

Wish for the best future that i wanna get

Wish for our future together

I do

I always draw at the sky

Imagine that my finger is a pen

And the sky is my book

I do

I always wanna be by your side

Under the same sky where i stand alone

Under the same sky where i wish for the best future

Under the same sky we stay together

Shut!

Shut!

That's the way i do now

To let you know my feel

Shut!

That's the way to do now

To let you understand my feel

Shut!

That's the way must i do now

To let you know that i know you will never care

Angry

I want to ask you about that one thing

Is it right for you to feel sad because of it?

It would be glad for me if i can say, "NO. It should be me who sad because of YOU !"

Is it right for you to reach him?

It would be glad for me if i can say, "NO. It is me who reach him and HE HAS DECIDED for it. I've seen so many times you playing around him and let him hurt JUST TO LET FUN YOURSELF !"

Is it right for you to feel angry to me because that one thing?! Huh?!

It would be glad for me if i can say, "NO. It should be ME who get angry to you because of you, who once let him sad, who once let him cried, who once playing around with his heart and feel !!!"

One thing that you should know OBVIOUSLY

I'll protect him no matter how far you try to reach him

I'll protect him no matter how far you try to let yourself close to him cause i know you're just a fool who want to playing him around

I'll protect him no matter what you want to do to him

I'll protect him with all my love

I'll protect him with all my heart

I'll protect him with all my faith

for a girl who named girl

Waiting

I don't know is this right to do or not

But i am waiting

I try to let you hear the sound of the sea

But i am waiting

I try to let you see the blue sky

But i am waiting

I try to let you sleep on the ground

But i am waiting

I try to

But i am

Waiting

Wish

Under the open sky

Tonight, no one star meet me

I just see a bias

Think that tonight i can meet you

My best silence friends i ever had

Who always listen all my shout

Who always cling all my doubt

Who always talk all my sad

Who always smile all my happiness

 Star

My real star who made my best silence friends and it's bright

Just to keep me smile

Wish

I beg you for wish

Give me the best

Give me the strength

Give me the silencel

Not to let me cry tonight

And another night with same reason

I wish it to You

Key

The key is grateful to your God

He will give you more and more

Happiness is sign of your near with your God

Problem is sign that God is missing you so much

Wonderful

It is great when you can smile with people around you

And know that people around loves you

They makes you stronger

They makes you brighter

That's a wonderful life

Hurt

It hurts

Just like what i said

It hurts !

I may cry but i wont

I may scream out loud but i wont

I may frustate but i wont

I wont!

I don't want to

But, what can i do?

Silent? and hear their opinion?

No, i have my opinion!

But what i get?

Hurt!

Wait!

Wait!

Your sight!

Your mouth!

Your sense!

Your....

Your.......

Your..........

Everythings that your....

Be aware!

Sky

Blue

Deep

White

Swaying

One of the most beautiful thing i ever see

Sky

I love it

Just like the way i love you

Just like the way beauty as you

Apart

Sometimes you can't always stay by the people that you love's side

But something that important is your pray for your beloved people

Don't ever stop pray for it! Keep in faith and be waiting!

Surely everything that will happen is something that make you enjoy

Yeah, life just once. Enjoy it!

Time

Yeah, everything is beautiful when it comes in right time

And what you need is waiting patiently

Be believe! God prepare the best for you

No matter how hard you think about it

But you will know the truth is the best way for you